I am desperately in need of one. The last few days I have just been in a funk and I can't seem to shake it - and it is for no apparent reason.
Our anniversary was great - we went on a river cruise to watch the fireworks - it was a good time, but a late night. We went to the zoo the next day, which was, of course the hottest day of the year so far. To say I was exhausted after those 2 days would be putting it mildly. R got me a very thoughtful gift for our anniversary - a gift certificate for a massage at a place that specializes in prenatal massage. Very sweet. I also found a place that has prenatal yoga - it isn't here in the town I live in, but across the river - which really isn't far, but I am still unsure about it as I am not a fan of driving in traffic.
I need to go shopping for some clothes that fit - my jeans I have are so uncomfortable that it just isn't working anymore. I am not a big fan of shopping anyway, and since I don't look pregnant yet, I just feel like it is silly to buy maternity clothes. Which leaves me just feeling....well, fat. (see...there's that need for an attitude adjustment coming through!)
I am finally taking my last course for my Master's program - rather than do a thesis I have to take a culminating exam - which is fine except that I have to find someone to proctor it (it can't be a friend or family member) - which is difficult considering I don't really know anyone here! If I don't find someone to do it then I fail the course and won't graduate. Grrr...frustrating. If all else fails I can probably have my principal for the school I work for do it, but the school office is about 2.5 hours away - the exam is 6 hours - which makes for a really long day. Obviously it will be worth it but I would much rather be able to be close to home - I am such a homebody anyway and don't care to be away from home for that long (pathetic, I know) and my job is just adding to that since I work at home - I have an excuse to just stay home. I know I need to get out and do some stuff or I am going to go stir crazy...which I think is part of my problem the last few days. So, the yoga class would be good for me - a reason to get out of the house for a bit each week.
There are so many things I have to be grateful for that I feel bad that I have been in such a funk. Tomorrow, I am 13 weeks! I can't believe we have made it this far. Tuesday is my appointment with the OB - I am excited and nervous (worried that there will be something wrong). Thankfully, R's job and schedule allows for him to always be able to go to the appointments with me - he thinks I am being silly for worrying so much about it - but, I can't help it. the pain of the m/c, while almost 2 years ago, is still a painful reminder that things can go wrong. (Perhaps this is the cause of my funk - the m/c was almost exactly 2 years ago - just a few days before we hit that mark...)
The good news is that R actually has the weekend off (something that doesn't happen as often as I would like), it will be nice to have the distraction.
Hope everyone has a good weekend - I am off to try and shake this foul mood.
Congrats on making it to the 13th week mark, how exciting! :) I am with you in that I generally despise shopping, but I bet shopping for maternity clothes (and baby items) will be super fun! And don't feel bad about being a home body, I am totally one as well. Congrats on having almost completed your Master's program. That's awesome news, what an accomplishment! I too am working on a Master's degree and like you, my program requires that I take a cumulative exam at the end (complete with the hassle of finding a proctor and all, so I feel your pain). Fortunately, I have a few more courses to complete before I have to really start worrying about that, but still, the thought of it makes me a little nervous. Hope you enjoy the yoga class/massage (what a thoughtful hubby you have) and best of luck at your OB appointment next week. Take care. :)
ReplyDeleteYay!! Almost 13 weeks :) I hope you can shake your mood before the weekend- looks like it is going to be a nice one!!
ReplyDeleteJust blame the mood on all the hormones :)
ReplyDeleteCongrats on 13 weeks- you have entered the 2nd trimester !!!!!
Hope you week-end with your hubby is wonderful.
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ReplyDeletecongratulations on 13 wks! i'm sorry you're feeling in a funk. i feel like so many of of us are this week. i know i certainly was and still kinda am. i hope that the weekend brings you happiness and peace and you find a way out of your funk. when you find the way, let me know how you did it, i need some tips ;)
ReplyDeletewishing you lots of luck with your appointment on tuesday!
keeping you in my prayers! :)
First off, what a sweet comment from ElisaJoy.
ReplyDeleteI totally recommend the prenatal yoga class, I've been going to one and it is great. we spend a little time talking, and then do yoga. I love it. LOVE it! (and i've never really liked yoga before.)
oh yes the funks. I feel you. Generally speaking I've felt very even keel emotionally, but there are times when I just get funky. There are so many emotions that I just don't have words for, and i think that they get caught up in making me feel a little stuck inside myself.
It must be so normal to worry before these ob appts. We've nicknamed our baby Houdini because I convince myself that it just might disappear, and so need the reassurance of these appts to assure me that the baby is still in there.
sending you lots of love!